Envy: Not A Good Thing





Dome of the Mount

The City of Jerusalem


Pyrmids of Egypt

Nelson's Tractor problems

Nelson going to get tools

As you can see from the photo’s I’ve been to a few places. I’ve been able to travel to places I only dreamed about prior to 2006. I never thought in all my life I’d be able to see Egypt, Petra, Jerusalem, Stonehenge, and Stockton California to see my best friend. YEP, I’m pretty lucky. Actually luck has nothing to do with it at all.

I’ve only been able to travel this much is solely because Robb was KIA in Baghdad Iraq in 2006. If he hadn’t been shot by a sniper, I would be working my tail off at some job and definitely not being paid what I was worth. It is because Robb died in Iraq that I am able to travel, and if you really want to look at it, it just sucks big time. YEA I get to go to places people often dream about, but if I could have Robb back, I’d take him in a heartbeat. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve loved the places I’ve seen and experienced the different cultures, but there is one thing in my life that is missing. Love. There is no one to love me. No one that I can talk to like I talked to Robb. There is no one to wake up next to and enjoy a morning cup of coffee with. And there’s no one who takes care of me when I physically get hurt. No one is there.

So be envious if you want, but really it’s not a good thing at all.


Cait in Kenya


Cait in Kenya

Taken at AIC Church Kipomet

This was during Church service on Easter Sunday. Now Easter is big there, but it’s BIGGER! Meaning that Easter Sunday there was a Choir competition and several Church Choirs were there singing. There were a ton of people around and little kids all over the place. People were standing outside and looking in the windows to hear the choirs. It actually is great fun. I had a lot of fun watching the various choirs perform. It’s one of the things I miss about Kenya, the music.

Here in the States, you must have a music degree to lead worship at church. In Kenya it’s the opposite. Choir’s are lead, not by men with degree’s, but by men whose heart is for the music of the church. Now at first I thought it odd, but after listening to the music for the past 2 years I’ve changed my mind. Choirs need not be lead by men with degrees. Choirs need to be lead by people with a heart for worship and a heart to serve the Lord. If those two things aren’t there, then why are they?

I talked to Oliver at AIC about this and he said something to me that I’ve remembered and kept thinking about. He said, “It’w what my heart tells me to do and it’s what God has been telling me to do, so I do it.”
Oliver doesn’t have a music degree, he really doesn’t have that great of a voice. BUT IT IS HIS HEART THAT MATTERS AND NOTHING ELSE! I miss that and I can’t wait to go back to Kitale!

WOW Thank YOU!!!

OK, I know this will seem really ODD considering it’s been 2 years since it happened, but at the time I couldn’t put my thoughts on paper/computer screen. So here it goes.


When the actual operation happened I was in Kenya at the Sopa Lodge in Maasi Mara. I found out as I walked into the lounge. Now when I heard about the op I was the ONLY American in the place. Needless to say I didn’t do what I should have done and kept my mouth shut. Nope not me, I jumped up and stated loudly “YES” Not the correct action for that place and time, but what the hell I was happy the asshole that arranged 9-11 was finally dead. YEAH!!! Thank you Seal Team Six for doing me, yes me, a huge favor. I prayed for that day for a very long time (yes I did especially after Robb was KIA in Iraq). In my opinion OBL didn’t need to live especially after the towers fell, Pennsylvania, and the Pentagon.

Now maybe you’re wondering why I’m posting this now since it’s basically “old news.” Well I have a reason, and it’s simply I finally saw Zero Dark Thirty today. YES I realize it’s a movie, but it reminded me of what that particular SEAL team did for me. They took out the man who started this war on terror, and without this war, Robb would most likely be with me now. So I’ll say it again, THANK YOU SEAL TEAM SIX. I LOVE YOU GUYS.